Surprised to know

I have too many surprises that I don't even know which to begin with. Yesterday was the 'Afterglow' for Women's breakthrough weekend on March 14-17/08.
It was the same review like the first one I attended previously. Actually, I thought that the whole thing will be just a repeat because we are surposed to read 'Changes that heal' book before the meeting just like the first one. This time round I didn't read.

I took it that it is my responsiblility to meet up with my group. We were indeed very happy to see one another again after one and half months. First surprise - I didn't know that Janet was so impacted by me that she changed her perspective about herself, I mean the way she looked at herself.
She says, " I am different since the breakthrough weekend because of you." I was shocked because we didn't talk that much. I shared some stuff just before we left the hotel because Pastor Ann message was so real and open that caught me by surprised. The group was laughing at what I told them. It was some facts about myself and I didn't know by sharing it out could change someone's perspective about herself.

Janet was so amazed by me because I have never looked down at myself despite of my low education qualification. This was gripping her all her life and today she is set free through the working of the Holy Spirit. She learned to accept herself as who she is in Christ. And many blessing has taken place in her life right now and because of her, her parents have reconcilated after many years of separate lives.

I thought this trip was just to accompany Kheng Ling but I never never knew that God will be using me to bless another life. I just can't believe it, yeh God is sovereign and almighty. You just know that God presence is everywhere as much as you believe He is wonderful. Truely we are never worthy. Again I says because He is worthy that's why we are worthy.

Second Surprised - Received sms on 22/4/08 My facilitater for Breakthrough weekend. Know her for only one and half mths. That was the day I needed a blessing of discernment from the Lord so much and the Lord gave me according to my heart desire though it isn't a pleasant thing.
I have learned to accept truth instead of escaping from truth because only then healing of our emotion takes place.
She wrote:
On this special day I pray that the Lord of glory will pour His limitless grace n blessing into your life n that you be filled with love, joy, peace n sweet fruitfulness in Christ. May He satisfy the desires of your heart as u delight in Him. Thanking God for u:-) love, Monica

Yesterday, all of us then realised that it was her birthday that day. I was shocked because I simply received this blessing from her without wishing her. Well, she says she just wanted to bless some people whom she knows on that special day.

Somehow I have often felt that this is where I like to be and never regret moving to this church where the Lord's presence is often felt. The love of Jesus is ever in the heart of these people. They simply warm your heart with truth and sincerity. I often told them I have found my species. Actually, many time they don't understand what I am talking about because they will never understand what I have gone through. My christian journey in the past was so different.
Nothing attract me in this church, definitely not the band and the loud music, not the waving of hands and clappings but it is the love of God in their hearts, the consecrated hearts that caused them to lift up their hands to tell Jesus,"Yes I am willing to take the steps of change and give you all the glory."

Third surprised - Today Alissa sent me a sms. I thought it was a mistake, anyway by accident I deleted it. If not I will code.
It was roughly, something like - I love you and the angelic attitude like what Christ has. She has messed sms it to some people.
Well! Angelic attitude sound very saint but who has attained it only Christ alone. And what is an angelic attitude I wonder. How it come about? We can't attain it ourselves. It is by the grace of God in submission to Him completely. Giving Him all our rights in life, following Him at every turn. This need careful listening to the shepherd's voice. Many times we are too distracted, can't hear Him at all. Otherwise, anyone can too, if there is such thing as angelic attitude.

I dare not acknowledge this honour because we are clothed in the righteousness of God which is not our own. Would like to thank her for seeing things this way. What she sees is the working of the Holy Spirit of God in me but not me. I will take this as an affirmation from the Lord.

This is just how amazing God is because He is almighty. He will walk us from one victory to another if we only trust in Him.

Fourth Surprised - Saturday, Susan Hui, one of the Web praying parent. She told us to be at ease the way we want to sing or worship. Just be natural and be yourself, don't feel constrain about how it should be. So I told her my experience with my missionary friend Puspa. I know her less than half a year. On 15 Apirl, I offered to send her to the airport because her friends were at work. She left for Cambodia and will be serving there for 4 years.

God is so real in her life. I was at her flat and she simply talking to Jesus as if He is there. Of course, I know all this while God's presence is everywhere. I was pretty amazed the way she prayed was talking to God as a person in the house.

Over that little conversation, Susan jumped. She told me that Puspa is her long lost praying partner and she wants to meet her up again. Since she left for India many years ago, she has lost contact. I just can't believe it, it is really a small world. Yeh, will help them connect again. Isn't this my calling. Isa 58:12 and much more confirmation from the word of God.

Fifth surprised - Was surprised to receive news from that person on Saturday. Glad that this person took whatever that happened positively. And I see God doing a deep work in this person's life. Hope that this person continue to listen to God's directions and cling to Him.

Everyday is so amazing because I really don't know what is taking place for the next moment of my life. And it is not that I don't have trials, I do have challenging moments but I have to keep praying and entrusting them to God all the time. May God also do a deep work in your life so that you know who HE says He is.

Last surprised - I think there is no surprised because I wasn't aware of it myself in the past but yesterday when Pastor Chung Kai preached, I came to realise. The msg was DON'T LOSE HEART.

He said 4 things to remember when you bring up your children. PRAY, MODEL, LOVE and TRAINED. And the rest you leave it to God, especially when they stray.

I realised I have been practising these four things all this while with the younger generation. I do see fruits coming up. And how did I know, I actually don't know but I believe that the Lord had taught me so. He has led me by His Spirit. And He also help filled up my areas of inadequacy.
PRAISE the LORD all ye people. Amen.