Hospitalized

I never thought that I did end up in KK Hospital on Monday. I believe all things work out for good for me despite of the physical struggle I face. It was pretty scarey, I felt like fainting late Sunday afternoon.

After the counseling course, I had a feeling that I might pass out while driving home. I just pray that the Lord help me make it home. By the time, I reached my car park, I just couldn't move because I had been bleeding for almost 3 weeks (menses). It happened at the moment that it was getting worse.

I managed to call Anthony down to pick me up from the car. My physical body has been giving alot of problems coming to 2 years. Despite of all these, I have grown spiritually with wisdom from God. Alot of unexpected moments in my life with my physical weakness, yet the Lord still makes me His channel.

On Monday morning at KK, I was admitted immediately because of my condition. Doctor was disappointed that I come in so late. Everything happened so fast, in less than 2 hours, I was in the ward. The nurse attended to me swiftly, I was not allowed to come down to walk. Anyway, I was too weak to move.

I am still thankful that I need not have blood transfusion. I only miss by one point. Below that I will have to. I don't know, these blood may give me more complication. I just thank God, I didn't have to do it.

The next few hours was tough, have a jap to stop bleeding. The oily liquid cause me much pain the whole night. Test for blood count and go through the scanning of the womb.

The next day, was put to sleep then go through D n C (washing of the womb). By the time I come out from the threate. I was extremely weak and drowsy.

I am glad to be discharge by Wednesday and am fine now. Although, I suffered the side effect of gastric pain. Other then that I am just fine.

During my reflection, I wonder why I have to suffer so much on my physical aspect. I felt that there is a great spiritual warfare. One reason I said this because my bleeding actually stop a week ago. That Sunday night I was very burden, I intercede for someone and amazingly the prayer was answered but I didn't know until that someone called to tell me the following Sunday
night which was the fateful night. I could only speak a few words on the bed.

I confirmed it was a battle with darkness. I will be taking Joanne on the BTW. I believe is God's leading too, it has been almost a year I last seen and spoken to her. I was very much surprise by her that she said Aunty Ruth I want to come with you. She cancelled her overseas trip with her friends just to go with me. She was actually somebody else's friend and I hardly know her.

I know the devil won't let me off. I have to resist the devil then he will flee from me. I don't regret what I am doing. I see KL grow, I see KT has breakthough and my many answered prayers. Sometimes, I even doubted, is it my prayers. Yes, I am so comforted to know that the Lord heard me.

Is just so important for me to know what is the things upon the Lord's heart to be laid on mine. I will do accordingly, even though it may be just a small thing. Amazingly, the Lord does reveal to me what are the things that is upon His. I now realise that I am Special.