Last counseling lesson

Today, I am still doing great physically though tired but not weak. Beside, the workshop, Ps KK answered some of the bibical questions on difficult cases so professionally. I was very amazed by his understanding and wisdom he has from God. I just feel that he is gifted in the area of counseling.

He answered my emotional disappointment I faced though I didn't share it out. As a pastor, I am sured he face it too. If I have the opportunity to be interviewed by him, I will put forward this questioned.

He walked through his (PIN) person in need at most five session. I believe he is very focus, he can see whether the person wants to take the step of change and work together very seriously.
He has his set of believe system and convictions but if his PIN choose to do otherwise, he leaves it final decision to his PIN. I used to be like this but recently I just can't accept it that God can show so clearly and the person knew it yet clearly disobey God. I was too taken a back and got myself embesh in the situation as I was not willing to see the person mess up his life.

Today, after the last session, I began to see that I am in a refining process for counseling practice. I was pretty shocked to realise this. I believe God is preparing me. We are to walk with the person even they choose silly ways and mess up their lives and others. I fine it very hard for me but Ps KK may be harder because his foresight is so much better than mine. God even revealed to him more in a couseling session as he has more experience in going about his practice.

I have to be prepared to face emotional set back or cut off relational feelings because I knew consequences result when wrong decision make by PIN. If not, I felt very hurt and used. I need to know how to handle this area of my life which is very real to many counselors too.

I am glad that I have the privledged to join the course. It is the 1st patch in Covenant. We will be put under mentoring before we are sent to serve as Lay counselors.

Alice kept saying, remember to pray for protection for yourself and your family to be covered because we are pulling a soul out from the dungeon. We are battling with darkness and may have spiritual attack. I believe this is very true. I experience this a few times which I can't with words describe. Even if I shared with someone, I felt that many may not believe what I say.

With my great disappointment recently, I was so hesitant to attend the interview. When Alice asked who is ready, I decided to withdraw. When Joyce approached me, I told her may be I am not ready but she insisted that I give myself a try. It is a 2 yrs ministry when I commit to it.
And suddenly the Lord brought to my mind that I musn't forget that I am called by God to do so in Isa 58:12. That is the reason why I signed up for the 6 mth counseling training. At last I agree so. I almost lost my vision at the end of the course.

I believe the devil is working very hard to discourage me, at the same time, the Lord uses the same situation to teach me to be wise and refine me. I believe there is still a great journey ahead of me. I must remember that I am under His wings.