It was very tiring through this 7 days training but fruitful. I have come to understand many things that I never know or get to understand why we need healing in our souls and spirits. It helps me to see many broken people that are hurting and in pain to the extent that some have seal up the dark secrets in their unconscious mind. This can not be helped by getting them to read the bible and praying or getting them to go to church. Is not going to work, gross darkness cover them. Of course, we can wait for divine visitation of the Lord like Paul's case but most of the time isn't like this.
Many christians live a life with a mask that cover up the hurts and pains. Trying to be brave in the front. I was just too taken a back that almost everyone has some darkness gripping them.
I saw the power and authority of God over the power of darkness. The generational sins that passed down our generations. Such as occultic practices, sexual sins, curses and idols worshipping which the bible mentioned that passed down from our ancestors continue to be actived even when we are saved. This bring about the struggle in our walk as christian still living in bondage without realising them.
There were many testimonies, so many which is so unbelievable after they were set free. A China lady shared how she lives in fear of seeing her orphanage kids died one after another. She worked as a care giver for 7 years, she was in tears. She also served in the church as leader often in a brave front but there was great fear in her to see friends die. Yesterday as she shared how she was set free, I was deeply moved. She was delivered from the spirit of death and hell.
While the leader in her team did deliverance for her, there was a great struggle within. She felt a snake wriggling in her stomach coming up and logged in her head. When the leader spoke in Jesus name, she felt something left her very fast. The fear of death left her instantly.
Although, I know about deliverance during my teens but never understand what is this all about. I thought this must be for Pastors. Somehow in this course, I being to realise that this is the authority we have in Christ Jesus. Everyone of us have to know how to help someone in need of such deliverance. We are given the authority in Jesus, being children of God. There are many scriptures about deliverance and generational sins that have been brought down by our forefathers. I will code it the next blogging. Is amazing to see people in captive set free.
While Esther Soo was sharing about the work, the Lord brought to my rememberance of Isa 44:1,2. There was a period that I sought God about further studies in counseling but somehow there was no answer to it and this is the verse. I also know my calling but not clear about how to work on broken lives and failed relationships. I just obey by whom ever the Lord brought along my path. During her sharing, my soul was deeply move by the great number of broken lives in this training time. And the Lord said not to be afraid, He will show me how.
This is a type of counseling but much more than just counseling. By the way, I met Yu Ling from Lee's College who used to over see the work during my study there. She even marked my assignment and interview me then. She is the Pastor of Mount Olive. She is one of the leader in Ellel.
I am walking in a journey only plan by God. At the mean time, will wait for further direction from Him. Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
My deliverance
Is an amazing journey being minister to. Althrough this is my 2nd time from different group of people, yet the whole process is almost the same.
I was very discouraged over my pain recently. There are certain type of treatment which I am not willing to try out due to medicial uncertainty. And because of this pain, I begin to doubt my calling God has for me.
Yesterday, the Lord confirmed it again. A number of us heard a very sweet voice singing. Each of us thought that it was one of us singing. I was closing my eyes, I thought my friend sang to comfort me. Only to realise that none of us sing like this. So we heard the angel sang. It was an affirmation for me, that God is with me in my journey of pain. What an encounter with God.
The devil won't sing this way, beautifully and said that Jesus is Lord. Indeed it was such a special experience I could never imagine.
I was very discouraged over my pain recently. There are certain type of treatment which I am not willing to try out due to medicial uncertainty. And because of this pain, I begin to doubt my calling God has for me.
Yesterday, the Lord confirmed it again. A number of us heard a very sweet voice singing. Each of us thought that it was one of us singing. I was closing my eyes, I thought my friend sang to comfort me. Only to realise that none of us sing like this. So we heard the angel sang. It was an affirmation for me, that God is with me in my journey of pain. What an encounter with God.
The devil won't sing this way, beautifully and said that Jesus is Lord. Indeed it was such a special experience I could never imagine.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Ellel ministries
I am glad to have come to this Ellel 7 days training school. I am into my 4th day here in Port Dickson. I am amazed by the ways the ministries is set up to train people for Healing and deliverences. I was sceptical about the work but have open myself to know and understand.
It is indeed an amazing journey. If not for Corina, I wouldn't have wanted to come myself. The ministries workers are very sound and orderly. They are so sane and gentle that you are not force nor persuaded to do what you are not ready to accept.
They are patients and graciousness touches me. They do their best to help you understand the authority of God and they are not oftened if you should question them any way you like.
They are about 240 of us from 10 countries and different churches. I will be doing another workshop shortly. Yesterday, was an amazing one. There are 2 more workshops to go.
God has called different people for different purposes and ministries. He has indeed made us the sons of God and given us the authority over darkness.
It is indeed an amazing journey. If not for Corina, I wouldn't have wanted to come myself. The ministries workers are very sound and orderly. They are so sane and gentle that you are not force nor persuaded to do what you are not ready to accept.
They are patients and graciousness touches me. They do their best to help you understand the authority of God and they are not oftened if you should question them any way you like.
They are about 240 of us from 10 countries and different churches. I will be doing another workshop shortly. Yesterday, was an amazing one. There are 2 more workshops to go.
God has called different people for different purposes and ministries. He has indeed made us the sons of God and given us the authority over darkness.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
God's favour fall on Rebecca
I was not very supportive of Rebecca applying for attachment to US disney, Florida. So is Anthony, due to dangerous freedom. When one do not know how to use freedom, it becomes dangerous. Yet the past one month many changes had taken place. From writing her 2 thousands words to school interview to US phone interview to now preparing stuff for the 5 mths attachment. She will only be back next year end of January.
Anthony and myself have sat down with her to sort out the matter. As parents we are concerned about the influence and impact in her life there. So we allow her to submit her essay. As I continued to pray for God's direction in her life. Corina, my prayer partner intercede together with me.
Somehow, She seems to find favour with God. I was horrific to know that we have to fork out about $7K for the attachment without including her personal expenses there. Yet the Lord got me to know that her educational insurance will be matured early July which I have forgotten about it. I bank in the cheque of almost $20K which arrived by post yesterday. Just in time, this was meant for her further studies which I took 18 yrs to save. I received at the right time. 18 yrs ago, I plan to help her pay part of university fee because the amount isn't big but now is to pay for her course in US and I believe God has taken care of it.
It was indeed her dream to go US disney for attachment, though the school at that point of time did not have such attachment. She was upset and was telling me about it. I was happy that there wasn't such attachment. She intended to apply herself but did not know the way to go about it.
Yet, for the first time TP managed to get the link. I was suprised when her dream came through.
From selecting polys to getting into TP, she got her first choice of school, first choice of the course she wanted, was amazing enough because I find it smooth sailing. The past 2 years, she struggled over the choices of her side courses at TP, yet most of the time she got the choice she wanted.
Never did God short change her. Even in jobs, she found favour with bosses as she is extremely hardworking. The past 2 mths, she works very hard trying to save her allowance in US as that she has to fork that out herself in our agreedment. I didn't want her to take for granted that everything is so easily provided for, she needs to be responsible for her part in it as well.
Last Saturday 4th July, Anthony got a company bungalow through balloting. We had not gotten one for several yrs. And this happen to fall near Rebecca's birthday on 5th July. So I allowed her to celebrate her birthday and also farewell to her friends. Everything seems to happen in a short time.
I was surprised that when she sum up her cash gift, she had $2.4K, beside her many other gifts. Later, I realised that my brother and Anthony's sister gave her $1K each. I was very shocked indeed. The Lord has provided for her.
I have shared with her that she needs to give her first fruit of her salary to the Lord in the form of tithing 10%. God may not bless you with money but you will know that when you give you will find favour with Him as this is due to God. She has regularly tith since her first part-time job.
The Lord has open window of blessings as written in Malachi 3:10.
So, I told her to stop working part-time and concentrated on her study and preparation. I believe God will take care of her since I have done my part praying for direction for her. I will have to accept what I cannot. Only God knows her destiny. My only desire is that wherever she goes, she must remember God's goodness and mercies toward her. Continue her journey with Him.
I recalled someone asked me, "You allow her to enter Hospitality and Tourism, so you don't mind her working in the casino in the near future when IR is up?" As christian, that person thought that I should have certain stand. This has not cross mind and I only thought that she probably do something about Tourism or Hotel managment. I was dumb founded and did not reply. I do not know what's the future await her. I was thinking that God can still use her to lead guest or tourist to Jesus in area like this. I have heard wonderful things from friends who work in the resort and lead some to Christ. So my perspective of ungodliness in such area of work has changed.
Well! I am glad the Lord has led her in the way He wants it. Rebecca's desires happen to come in line with Him. And she is asking something what He would grant her. So I will continue to pray that God keeps her mind and heart in Christ that whatever she asked she would ask in the will of God.
Lastly, after making a search in the internet where Hampton University is, I realised that it is not very far from my brother's place. He and his family staying in North Carolina with is about few hours away from the University and also Florida. At least, if anything happen he can get there before I do.
God's know my anxiety, yet of all the disney around the world, she is attached there. This does give me some assurance and peace of mind. If the Lord's willing, we might visit her there end of the year. For once I may find meaning visiting US. My husband says, we need to slaughter a golden goose to go. Well! shall see how, as the Lord leads.
Anthony and myself have sat down with her to sort out the matter. As parents we are concerned about the influence and impact in her life there. So we allow her to submit her essay. As I continued to pray for God's direction in her life. Corina, my prayer partner intercede together with me.
Somehow, She seems to find favour with God. I was horrific to know that we have to fork out about $7K for the attachment without including her personal expenses there. Yet the Lord got me to know that her educational insurance will be matured early July which I have forgotten about it. I bank in the cheque of almost $20K which arrived by post yesterday. Just in time, this was meant for her further studies which I took 18 yrs to save. I received at the right time. 18 yrs ago, I plan to help her pay part of university fee because the amount isn't big but now is to pay for her course in US and I believe God has taken care of it.
It was indeed her dream to go US disney for attachment, though the school at that point of time did not have such attachment. She was upset and was telling me about it. I was happy that there wasn't such attachment. She intended to apply herself but did not know the way to go about it.
Yet, for the first time TP managed to get the link. I was suprised when her dream came through.
From selecting polys to getting into TP, she got her first choice of school, first choice of the course she wanted, was amazing enough because I find it smooth sailing. The past 2 years, she struggled over the choices of her side courses at TP, yet most of the time she got the choice she wanted.
Never did God short change her. Even in jobs, she found favour with bosses as she is extremely hardworking. The past 2 mths, she works very hard trying to save her allowance in US as that she has to fork that out herself in our agreedment. I didn't want her to take for granted that everything is so easily provided for, she needs to be responsible for her part in it as well.
Last Saturday 4th July, Anthony got a company bungalow through balloting. We had not gotten one for several yrs. And this happen to fall near Rebecca's birthday on 5th July. So I allowed her to celebrate her birthday and also farewell to her friends. Everything seems to happen in a short time.
I was surprised that when she sum up her cash gift, she had $2.4K, beside her many other gifts. Later, I realised that my brother and Anthony's sister gave her $1K each. I was very shocked indeed. The Lord has provided for her.
I have shared with her that she needs to give her first fruit of her salary to the Lord in the form of tithing 10%. God may not bless you with money but you will know that when you give you will find favour with Him as this is due to God. She has regularly tith since her first part-time job.
The Lord has open window of blessings as written in Malachi 3:10.
So, I told her to stop working part-time and concentrated on her study and preparation. I believe God will take care of her since I have done my part praying for direction for her. I will have to accept what I cannot. Only God knows her destiny. My only desire is that wherever she goes, she must remember God's goodness and mercies toward her. Continue her journey with Him.
I recalled someone asked me, "You allow her to enter Hospitality and Tourism, so you don't mind her working in the casino in the near future when IR is up?" As christian, that person thought that I should have certain stand. This has not cross mind and I only thought that she probably do something about Tourism or Hotel managment. I was dumb founded and did not reply. I do not know what's the future await her. I was thinking that God can still use her to lead guest or tourist to Jesus in area like this. I have heard wonderful things from friends who work in the resort and lead some to Christ. So my perspective of ungodliness in such area of work has changed.
Well! I am glad the Lord has led her in the way He wants it. Rebecca's desires happen to come in line with Him. And she is asking something what He would grant her. So I will continue to pray that God keeps her mind and heart in Christ that whatever she asked she would ask in the will of God.
Lastly, after making a search in the internet where Hampton University is, I realised that it is not very far from my brother's place. He and his family staying in North Carolina with is about few hours away from the University and also Florida. At least, if anything happen he can get there before I do.
God's know my anxiety, yet of all the disney around the world, she is attached there. This does give me some assurance and peace of mind. If the Lord's willing, we might visit her there end of the year. For once I may find meaning visiting US. My husband says, we need to slaughter a golden goose to go. Well! shall see how, as the Lord leads.
Friday, June 5, 2009
My heavy heart
This few days, feeling physically lousy. I dragged making the decision to hosiptialise myself for four days to do infusion. This is to stop the pain from head, neck, shoulder, arm and to the hands as Dr. Siow said that it would help to get rid of the pain completely.
I hesitated because the medication he gave me is so strong that cause me to sleep through out the day and night, yet it didn't take away the pain on my body. I feel that it is a major decision because what if it didn't work out to stop the pain. I might have side effect due to it that the Dr. may not be responsible for it.
I have carried this pain for more than 2 yrs. Somehow the Lord didn't answer my prayer for deliverance. By now, I can't bear the pain without taking painkiller.
Lately, I have decided to take Pontalon medication, which is very strong to kill pain. Even with that I have still 30% pain, bearable. I have tried all treatment to no avail.
Today, Rebecca wanted to watch a show. I was not very interested due to body pain. I don't even know what I will be watching.
My aim of going with her is because I do not know when will be the next time that I am able to do so. While I am still able to move and talk, I did better do what I can. I believe she isn't aware how bad shape I am, anyway she is living in her own world of what she wants.
I very much look forward for a deliverance but what if it is not my expection. I have to be prepared for the worst because only God knows what's best. I have been thinking alot these few days.
Due to being trouble by a friend's attitude lately, I hope to speak to Rebecca. I wanted to help her understand some stuff about working with people.
I agree that the moive 'Dance Subaru' is a good one. There is alot of insight about the show. She was told to able to learn to sense her surrounding dancers while she is dancing. She needs to be sensitive to people's move around her, be constantly aware as a team. So that she knows how to go along in the right way and timing. She was also told by the coach not to allow the dancing technics master or control her moves but instead master the technics and used them to dance it right as a skill.
I am trying to say that either you master your ambition or ambition master your life. A person can also master their passion by God's grace or be master by your passion. These are two complete different things because it has different result in life. This is what happened to Dancer Liz Pack whose ambition was to be the top dancer. Dancer Mana is always jealous over Subaru's talent. In the end Dancer Liz Pack lost to Subaru, who dance for joy of dancing.
Is about a person's value and believe or mind set. Rebecca saw a skirt that she wanted so much but she barely fit it right. Although it is not expensive but probably she could only put on once and realise it isn't suitable. She is so taken in by just a skirt, instead of telling herself, "yes is really nice but not for me. Will look out for better ones." I offer her another skirt which fit better but she didn't quiet like it. Somehow, she wanted to buy both. I was very taken aback and I told her don't buy something you don't like, let's not buy at all. She was adamant, nothing can change so finally I gave in and pay for both.
I was extremely disappointed with her, I had to rush home to teach and had no time to go on like this with her. I asked her a question, " If you saw a rotten apple and like it so much. Why would you buy it when you can't eat it." She answered," I will still buy it because I like it so much. If I choose to eat it, I am the one who vomit it out not you, why you bother."
Her unteachable spirit shocked me to tears. I now understand how she chooses to lead her life. I already have some fear and have been trying to get her to do her devotion using daily bread so that she may have wisdom from God before she is selected to US disneyland for attachment.
I know that doing quiet time cannot be forced but since she wanted an attachment so far away, she better learn to commune with God. Only God can be with her always and at anytime.
My friend has a special calling from God. I know that she has a passion to serve and raise up the next generation of pastors and missionaries. Her passion turn weird when she started to be controlling and blaming for things that frustrated her. I was aware of what she said, her spirit of accusing others became so real to me that I fear working with her. What she said wasn't true because I know what's going on, such immature person shocked me.
She appeared to me for 2 yrs, a woman of prayer, God fearing but when she begins to master her passion to serve God the ways she wants, everythings change. God no longer is the master of her passion, it was very scary for me that I back out last minute.
I believe she loves God and she wants to please God but when a person lost her senses of serving, it becomes messy.
Even a person not a christian but mature in life, can manage ambition rightly. Of course, chances very slim because we are fallen man. We need God's enlightment every now and then, to warn us of danger. Danger of what we wanted, irregardless of anything, any unforseen circumstances, in any situation, you just want. One can lost senses of hurting others to fulfill what one wanted. Can this bring about a right result?
I was upset with Rebecca more of values that she needs to know than a skirt. The right values you have will bring you a long journey in life and to where the right person, the place you go and the right thing you do. Yes, it hurts me because I can't me there to warn her always or advice her when she is in trouble.
Well! I believe one needs to be teachable in order to learn. Like my friend, she is my age yet she behaves like a child. What more Rebecca is still in her teens. Hope that she find God wherever she is.
I hesitated because the medication he gave me is so strong that cause me to sleep through out the day and night, yet it didn't take away the pain on my body. I feel that it is a major decision because what if it didn't work out to stop the pain. I might have side effect due to it that the Dr. may not be responsible for it.
I have carried this pain for more than 2 yrs. Somehow the Lord didn't answer my prayer for deliverance. By now, I can't bear the pain without taking painkiller.
Lately, I have decided to take Pontalon medication, which is very strong to kill pain. Even with that I have still 30% pain, bearable. I have tried all treatment to no avail.
Today, Rebecca wanted to watch a show. I was not very interested due to body pain. I don't even know what I will be watching.
My aim of going with her is because I do not know when will be the next time that I am able to do so. While I am still able to move and talk, I did better do what I can. I believe she isn't aware how bad shape I am, anyway she is living in her own world of what she wants.
I very much look forward for a deliverance but what if it is not my expection. I have to be prepared for the worst because only God knows what's best. I have been thinking alot these few days.
Due to being trouble by a friend's attitude lately, I hope to speak to Rebecca. I wanted to help her understand some stuff about working with people.
I agree that the moive 'Dance Subaru' is a good one. There is alot of insight about the show. She was told to able to learn to sense her surrounding dancers while she is dancing. She needs to be sensitive to people's move around her, be constantly aware as a team. So that she knows how to go along in the right way and timing. She was also told by the coach not to allow the dancing technics master or control her moves but instead master the technics and used them to dance it right as a skill.
I am trying to say that either you master your ambition or ambition master your life. A person can also master their passion by God's grace or be master by your passion. These are two complete different things because it has different result in life. This is what happened to Dancer Liz Pack whose ambition was to be the top dancer. Dancer Mana is always jealous over Subaru's talent. In the end Dancer Liz Pack lost to Subaru, who dance for joy of dancing.
Is about a person's value and believe or mind set. Rebecca saw a skirt that she wanted so much but she barely fit it right. Although it is not expensive but probably she could only put on once and realise it isn't suitable. She is so taken in by just a skirt, instead of telling herself, "yes is really nice but not for me. Will look out for better ones." I offer her another skirt which fit better but she didn't quiet like it. Somehow, she wanted to buy both. I was very taken aback and I told her don't buy something you don't like, let's not buy at all. She was adamant, nothing can change so finally I gave in and pay for both.
I was extremely disappointed with her, I had to rush home to teach and had no time to go on like this with her. I asked her a question, " If you saw a rotten apple and like it so much. Why would you buy it when you can't eat it." She answered," I will still buy it because I like it so much. If I choose to eat it, I am the one who vomit it out not you, why you bother."
Her unteachable spirit shocked me to tears. I now understand how she chooses to lead her life. I already have some fear and have been trying to get her to do her devotion using daily bread so that she may have wisdom from God before she is selected to US disneyland for attachment.
I know that doing quiet time cannot be forced but since she wanted an attachment so far away, she better learn to commune with God. Only God can be with her always and at anytime.
My friend has a special calling from God. I know that she has a passion to serve and raise up the next generation of pastors and missionaries. Her passion turn weird when she started to be controlling and blaming for things that frustrated her. I was aware of what she said, her spirit of accusing others became so real to me that I fear working with her. What she said wasn't true because I know what's going on, such immature person shocked me.
She appeared to me for 2 yrs, a woman of prayer, God fearing but when she begins to master her passion to serve God the ways she wants, everythings change. God no longer is the master of her passion, it was very scary for me that I back out last minute.
I believe she loves God and she wants to please God but when a person lost her senses of serving, it becomes messy.
Even a person not a christian but mature in life, can manage ambition rightly. Of course, chances very slim because we are fallen man. We need God's enlightment every now and then, to warn us of danger. Danger of what we wanted, irregardless of anything, any unforseen circumstances, in any situation, you just want. One can lost senses of hurting others to fulfill what one wanted. Can this bring about a right result?
I was upset with Rebecca more of values that she needs to know than a skirt. The right values you have will bring you a long journey in life and to where the right person, the place you go and the right thing you do. Yes, it hurts me because I can't me there to warn her always or advice her when she is in trouble.
Well! I believe one needs to be teachable in order to learn. Like my friend, she is my age yet she behaves like a child. What more Rebecca is still in her teens. Hope that she find God wherever she is.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Charmaine's Wedding
Yesterday, is a wonderful day to see Charmaine married. She is one of the sheep that the Lord had led me to serve with in 2004. We served together from 2005 to 2006, a short period of two years.
I am just bless that she is moving on with Galvin to the next phrase of life with God's love guiding them. The Lord has blessed them much in many unspeakable ways that only Galvin and Charmaine know best. Charmaine is trained in many aspect in Covenant. She has learned much and seen God's mighty hand. In two and half years since Jan 2007 she started IDT, led as DG, help in the WEB n participated in Women breakthrough weekend, she had built up great friendships in Covenant. I was pretty amazed by the covenanters who ran the wedding ceremony. It is also my first time to attend Covenant Wedding. I think, Galvin n Charmaine are the first to use Woodlands Cefc.
I have so many surprises yesterday, I spotted Aunty Lian a few table away. I was surprised that she come so far to attend Charmaine's wedding. She should be 93 yrs old now. Got to know that Su's mother, Mei Leng send her here. Mei Leng was such her familar sight that I couldn't recall where I had seen her. I tried so hard to recall, so did she. As she found me familar too. Both of us make lots of while guesses. I tried to run down my memory lane into my early 20s. I felt that I met her then and I had this impression that she was my boss. It was so embarassing that those companies I named, she wasn't familar. She kept on mentioning ACS, MGS, her companies that she worked with but I wasn't familar. Until she mention Learning Aids, this sound familar. Then I recalled that after I give birth to Rebecca I represented Learning Aids selling World books and Child craft for a period of time.
So she was the boss's wife who often teach us how to promote World book then. What a small world.
I met Lay Hong, my CBSI bible study mate. She was so surprised to see me at the wedding, I realised that she was there for her son, one of the boy in black, as he played musical instrument for Galvin and Charmaine's wedding.
I was also surprised to know that Yi Wen is getting married this November. Her boy friend introduced her to me last year 26th Jan 2008. I attended Discovery weekend for couple. I knew Yi Wen's boy friend earlier, forgotten his name (Y). I attended Building Healthy Relationship(BHR) the first module, he was in my group.
Chatting with them then, realised that they only know each other for only 4 mths and wasn't sure whether they could continue the relationships. And to hear that they are getting married at the end of this year, I was delighted. They are a nice couple with teachable spirits. Very mature, as they are also in their 30s. Met them in the Christian counseling course by Covenant while I was on duty last month. They are very eager to learn all they can. I believe God will prepare their hearts together as much as what He did to Galvin and Charmaine.
I was rather disturb by the spirits of indifferent by some NL people. They gave me the sense of unloving spirits. Have been in Covenant for 2 yrs 1 and half mths, I no longer feels negative. One told me that I was the one who brought Charmaine with me to Covenant. I was surprised by what she said. Anyway, Charmaine left 4 and a half mths earlier than me and I made the decision to leave only much later. Such a wonderful day, I didn't want to spoil it. Otherwise, I would have asked her how to when she left 4 and a half mths earlier than me.
If I am still in NL, I would have blow up with such accusation. These 2 yrs, have learnt alot, no point answering fools less I be like them. Covenant wasn't my intended church to go in the first place. Even though we attended the services there, I only made up my mind to stay on in Jan 2008 after checking out many things.
Both Charmaine and myself are mature adults, we made decision not base on human friendships but God's love being model there. As they exercise grace and truth, these touches me much to want to stay on.
Rebecca and I experienced some transparent greetings, mean when you greet NL people they see you as transparents, is like total strangers. Many surface greetings, there is no real human connections. Not even being neighbours like the bible says. I have long abandon such attitude, in Covenant, even if you are a total stranger, we learn to smile with a heart, you will just know it. The christian warmth as you call it, that cannot be found elsewhere, cannot be bought but found here.
The same one asked, "Why your church consisted of only young people?". Sound like young people are very much attracted to big cosy church with loud music. If this is so, how long can this last. I reminded her that many of them are Galvin and Charmaine's students not church people. They can't make church anouncement as there are few thousands. They only invite those that know them.
Trying to chat with them, makes me feel like they seems to have something to hide. I do feel sorry for them, living such difficult christian lives with lots of emotional baggages. There is one thing that I am so glad that I did, was that I am able with confidence to say that I have been with the church for 2 yrs. Amazingly there is no fear and no shame to give that confirmation where I will be. I just feel proud to do so, I believe Covenant has done much to influence me with God's perspective before I can do so.
There is one NL lady, who called out to me. She was so impressed by the whole wedding service that she told me that she was so touch and move by the authenticity of everything. She was just so excited by what she experience. I was amazed for awhile, guess she must have been touch by the love of God. Only when you are open to learning then can you be taught and realised, a jugdemental and skeptical heart lock God out. You can't see God as who He is but you can only see God as who you are. Hope you got what I mean.
I am just bless that she is moving on with Galvin to the next phrase of life with God's love guiding them. The Lord has blessed them much in many unspeakable ways that only Galvin and Charmaine know best. Charmaine is trained in many aspect in Covenant. She has learned much and seen God's mighty hand. In two and half years since Jan 2007 she started IDT, led as DG, help in the WEB n participated in Women breakthrough weekend, she had built up great friendships in Covenant. I was pretty amazed by the covenanters who ran the wedding ceremony. It is also my first time to attend Covenant Wedding. I think, Galvin n Charmaine are the first to use Woodlands Cefc.
I have so many surprises yesterday, I spotted Aunty Lian a few table away. I was surprised that she come so far to attend Charmaine's wedding. She should be 93 yrs old now. Got to know that Su's mother, Mei Leng send her here. Mei Leng was such her familar sight that I couldn't recall where I had seen her. I tried so hard to recall, so did she. As she found me familar too. Both of us make lots of while guesses. I tried to run down my memory lane into my early 20s. I felt that I met her then and I had this impression that she was my boss. It was so embarassing that those companies I named, she wasn't familar. She kept on mentioning ACS, MGS, her companies that she worked with but I wasn't familar. Until she mention Learning Aids, this sound familar. Then I recalled that after I give birth to Rebecca I represented Learning Aids selling World books and Child craft for a period of time.
So she was the boss's wife who often teach us how to promote World book then. What a small world.
I met Lay Hong, my CBSI bible study mate. She was so surprised to see me at the wedding, I realised that she was there for her son, one of the boy in black, as he played musical instrument for Galvin and Charmaine's wedding.
I was also surprised to know that Yi Wen is getting married this November. Her boy friend introduced her to me last year 26th Jan 2008. I attended Discovery weekend for couple. I knew Yi Wen's boy friend earlier, forgotten his name (Y). I attended Building Healthy Relationship(BHR) the first module, he was in my group.
Chatting with them then, realised that they only know each other for only 4 mths and wasn't sure whether they could continue the relationships. And to hear that they are getting married at the end of this year, I was delighted. They are a nice couple with teachable spirits. Very mature, as they are also in their 30s. Met them in the Christian counseling course by Covenant while I was on duty last month. They are very eager to learn all they can. I believe God will prepare their hearts together as much as what He did to Galvin and Charmaine.
I was rather disturb by the spirits of indifferent by some NL people. They gave me the sense of unloving spirits. Have been in Covenant for 2 yrs 1 and half mths, I no longer feels negative. One told me that I was the one who brought Charmaine with me to Covenant. I was surprised by what she said. Anyway, Charmaine left 4 and a half mths earlier than me and I made the decision to leave only much later. Such a wonderful day, I didn't want to spoil it. Otherwise, I would have asked her how to when she left 4 and a half mths earlier than me.
If I am still in NL, I would have blow up with such accusation. These 2 yrs, have learnt alot, no point answering fools less I be like them. Covenant wasn't my intended church to go in the first place. Even though we attended the services there, I only made up my mind to stay on in Jan 2008 after checking out many things.
Both Charmaine and myself are mature adults, we made decision not base on human friendships but God's love being model there. As they exercise grace and truth, these touches me much to want to stay on.
Rebecca and I experienced some transparent greetings, mean when you greet NL people they see you as transparents, is like total strangers. Many surface greetings, there is no real human connections. Not even being neighbours like the bible says. I have long abandon such attitude, in Covenant, even if you are a total stranger, we learn to smile with a heart, you will just know it. The christian warmth as you call it, that cannot be found elsewhere, cannot be bought but found here.
The same one asked, "Why your church consisted of only young people?". Sound like young people are very much attracted to big cosy church with loud music. If this is so, how long can this last. I reminded her that many of them are Galvin and Charmaine's students not church people. They can't make church anouncement as there are few thousands. They only invite those that know them.
Trying to chat with them, makes me feel like they seems to have something to hide. I do feel sorry for them, living such difficult christian lives with lots of emotional baggages. There is one thing that I am so glad that I did, was that I am able with confidence to say that I have been with the church for 2 yrs. Amazingly there is no fear and no shame to give that confirmation where I will be. I just feel proud to do so, I believe Covenant has done much to influence me with God's perspective before I can do so.
There is one NL lady, who called out to me. She was so impressed by the whole wedding service that she told me that she was so touch and move by the authenticity of everything. She was just so excited by what she experience. I was amazed for awhile, guess she must have been touch by the love of God. Only when you are open to learning then can you be taught and realised, a jugdemental and skeptical heart lock God out. You can't see God as who He is but you can only see God as who you are. Hope you got what I mean.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Thank God for protection
Want to apologise for being slow to give thanks to God. Will briefly up date two incidents that happened to my girls.
On 14th March 09 Rebecca came home from work at IT fair around 12.30 am . A boy entered the lift after her. All of a sudden, this boy stood down to hug her legs tightly. She screamed in fright. When the lift door open at 9 floor, he ran out quickly. Rebecca came home in a state of shock but I took it as a prank from a kid so didn't report to the police. He was about may be 13 yrs old.
Somehow, a month later, on 18th April 09. Racheal was attacked by the same guy in the lift, she was coming home from GB around 3.30pm. I was watering the plant outside the house. Racheal was in a state of shock, after brief desciption of the boy, Anthony and myself went down to look for him. We couldn't find him but made a police report.
Racheal put up a fierce fight with him. This time he ran out when the lift door open at 8th
floor. The police view this as a serious offend that they took time to search for the boy. In fact,
Racheal spend 3 hrs at the police station, the inspector from Jurong came all the way to Woodlands to interview her.
To our surprise, a week later on 24th April 09, the two girls were called to Jurong police station to pick photograph of the boy. Although, each when in to pick the photo of the boy at different time, they quickly picked the same photo.
The police actually went to the school to arrest him on that day. I believed the two girls were not the only ones attacked. Probably, many more.
Thank God that he is caught, yet at the same time hope he is corrected of such behaviour.
On 14th March 09 Rebecca came home from work at IT fair around 12.30 am . A boy entered the lift after her. All of a sudden, this boy stood down to hug her legs tightly. She screamed in fright. When the lift door open at 9 floor, he ran out quickly. Rebecca came home in a state of shock but I took it as a prank from a kid so didn't report to the police. He was about may be 13 yrs old.
Somehow, a month later, on 18th April 09. Racheal was attacked by the same guy in the lift, she was coming home from GB around 3.30pm. I was watering the plant outside the house. Racheal was in a state of shock, after brief desciption of the boy, Anthony and myself went down to look for him. We couldn't find him but made a police report.
Racheal put up a fierce fight with him. This time he ran out when the lift door open at 8th
floor. The police view this as a serious offend that they took time to search for the boy. In fact,
Racheal spend 3 hrs at the police station, the inspector from Jurong came all the way to Woodlands to interview her.
To our surprise, a week later on 24th April 09, the two girls were called to Jurong police station to pick photograph of the boy. Although, each when in to pick the photo of the boy at different time, they quickly picked the same photo.
The police actually went to the school to arrest him on that day. I believed the two girls were not the only ones attacked. Probably, many more.
Thank God that he is caught, yet at the same time hope he is corrected of such behaviour.
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