Just so amazing

Mon 7/7 was a real bad day for me, I had unpleasant experience from my husband, Rebecca, my brother. Too much for me to manage a bad day. I just couldn't meet up to my brother's expectation. Alot more lousy things just continue to Fri.

Last week, the devil already started to work very hard to distract me. I was anxious that I might not be able to settle my emotion and facilitate my group of ladies that was asign to me.

I told the Lord that I want to choose to forgive the hurt words I receive for the past two weeks, please help me. Soon after my prayer, there was a great sense of peace in my heart. I was surprised it doesn't hurt anymore even as my thoughts run through the bad events that had taken place. It just not there. It was just so amazing.

I pray through the 4 names of the ladies that was asigned to me daily a month ago that God will prepare their hearts. And it was so exciting to have met 3 of them yesterday(Sat 12/7/08) when the first WIC session launch. One of the ladies walk in to join my group. To my surprise, from 530 it went to 600 ladies for WIC. I am so glad to be in this.

I met the fourth lady today after service because I didn't want to wait for the next month. Well!
God continue to prepared me to do His will in Isa 58:12 in 2003. As I sat to facilitate the ladies, the Spirit of the Lord reminded me that this is what He wants me to do from now onwards. I can not describe from my heart what is taking place in my life.

In 2004 1st August I began with children choir followed by youth ministry which I tagged along with Charmaine. In all these, God is in it because He opens the door which was so difficult to open for me. I was not authorise to do so, I knew it was going to be hard and temperal because He has great things for me. Isa 58 the last few verses said so. He wants to take me on His high way, higher plain. He is going to take my hand and walk with me.

Today, I am equipped by Covenant in many ways. I learn alot, alot more than I can ever imagine. I have grown more mature in my christian walk with God. I learn to pray more effectively and see things in God's perspective. I am even more sensitive to the prompting of the Holy Spirit. I know exactly what the Lord has for me to do. All I need is, follow and follow in obedience with complete surrender even to my disadvantage sometimes. Even with heart aches.

Pastor Edmund asked,"What is Godliness?" He further explained that it is not the kindness or being polite that you show. It is not being that Good person. It is not attending prayer meeting, doing devotion, going worship or serve in a ministry zealously. It is not trying to live a righteous christian life.
All these are not Godliness but it is having God as your reference in your life constantly. Having God in the equation in your life. Always acknowledging Him as the master of our lives in everything. Otherwise, it can be Godlessness. And when Christian chooses to sin, it is called wickedness, it is no different from the unbelieving. I felt so sad for the many christian that I know. They appear to have a relationship with God but I don't think so.

I found these very profound because in the past, I could never put this into words but now I know. He asked," How do you evaluate your success in life?" He believes in the three yardsticks- Grace, Growth and Godliness which I heard this many time ever since I am in Covenant. I agreed with him strongly because I see with my eyes the church growing in this direction.

I am very sure and am confidence that God makes no mistake because His way is always right and His will is perfect.
Yesterday, Pastor Ann spoke on Beautiful life for WIC and today Pastor Edmund speaks on the Paradox of the Certain Kind. These two person have great insight from God on their knees. I am very touch by their close relationship with God.

To have great insight from God, only can be found on your knees cum God's words. Before any message, 6am they will be praying, that's what I got to know.

Looking forward to the coming 3 days conference at Faith Methodist on Christian Counseling from next Mon-Wed. I am so glad that I got the workshop I selected. I am packed with amazing stuff. And meeting interesting people and one of them include Dr. Luke Ho. I have recovered much under his treatments although it is very expensive. 75% of my pain has left me after the 6th session. It is amazing after suffering so much more than a year.

The Lord could have healed me Himself as so many people have prayed for me but He chooses Dr. Luke Ho to help me. I feel strongly there may be a purpose which I do not know now. God will reveal His secret to me in His time. God does reveal secret to whom He chooses. I experience this a number of times. I thank God that He has kept me in His equation.
Praise the Lord. Amen